How life has changed

It is difficult for me to fathom that I have reached a stage of life which I had never dreamt about in my childhood days. And the journey is definitely not inspiring.

My childhood days were spent daydreaming about saving the world from apocalypse or becoming someone very unique who was sent to this world to fulfill a purpose ( Some idea that I got from obsessively reading super hero comics or telecasts of low budget Indian superheroes).

Children are such fool to think that it is practical in real life. I remember in my primary school, once a teacher asked a student what he wants to become when he grows up. He said he wanted to be a spiderman. Teacher laughed so loud, but stopped immediately to realize that the entire class was silent. Silent, because we believed he could become one someday( May be we had lots of spiders in our science labs ). And since I called all of us fool but yet, we were happy. A fool can easily be happy. Wise people find it hard to sustain the feeling of happiness.

And as we grow up, we become wiser, where we all screw up.

Life today is no long the same it used to be. I told you. It is difficult for me to fathom that I have reached a stage of life which I had never dreamt about in my childhood days. And the journey is definitely not inspiring.

I have realized, we all are unique- just like others. How much important are you in this world? In this entire universe, you are just a speck who will die. And believe me, people forget you after your funeral. When they will go back to their own homes,they will think about you for 10 seconds, then forget. Because, they have their own life to look after. One day after, no one cares.

Life changes in a way that it puts you into existential crises. It destroys all your childhood illusions.You can’t do anything like a superhero except eat and poop like him. In the process of your beliefs getting destroyed, you try to hold on to it. Because, that had always given you an identity. And now, you have to face the final question- Who are you, why are you here and what are you doing?

We definitely don’t ever get these answers. But yes, it is sort of relieving to know that you have no responsibility to save the world. A lot of burden is uplifted because you can be comfortable in being imperfect. You can do what you like and not be worried about your purpose in life. Life definitely hasn’t become interesting. But, yes it has become more settling,more surrendering and more relaxing. Isn’t that what we always wanted? Peace of mind?

 

 

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